2012

Well, we are 5 months into 2012 and I have not blogged. Needless to say we have been extremely busy! I will recap what has happened the past few months.

In December I finally became an AUNT! Let me be the first to tell you that it was the most amazing experience to be part of. She was definitely a BOSTICK! She took her sweet time to make her debut. She was born 12/8/11 at 9:54 am. She was a whopping 8 lbs 9 oz and 21 inches long. She is the most beautiful thing that I have ever seen! The boys were both so excited to meet their cousin. Zeke is very protective of Ily. He loves her so much. Peyton just started to say her name. He calls her I and Zeke calls her I wee! It's the sweetest thing. I know they will be the best of friends!

Clyde and I had the opportunity to go to several Grizzlies games this year. We absolutely love the atmosphere at the FedEx Forum. My dad's boss is a season ticket holder. He graciously gave my dad his 4 tickets and parking pass. We indulged ourselves in Rendezvous.  Here are a few pictures from that night.

As March started we definitely became very busy!! On March 23 we found out that we were expecting baby #3! It was a very emotional day!! I went to the doctor that afternoon to confirm it.  Let me give a little background to what was going earlier that week. I had been spotting for several days and wasn't really sure what was going on. It wasn't a normal monthly cycle spotting. I talked to my nurse on Thursday and she told me to take a pregnancy test. My first words out of my mouth was yea right! HAHA...Joke was on me! I took it first thing Friday morning and it was definitely positive. Soooo many emotions began at that moment that I can't even begin to explain. I knew right then that something was wrong. I didn't spot with either of the boys (which they say is normal). I immediately called the office and made an appointment for that Friday afternoon. They did an ultrasound and it confirmed that I was indeed pregnant. I was 4 weeks and 5 days. I met with the doctor and we went over every what if, what it could be, and etc. He was so gracious and reassuring! It decided to treat me as a threatened miscarriage. We went over my previous pregnancies and this one was identical to Zeke. I mean even to the date of conception and due date! It was crazy!! He told me to take it easy over the weekend and to come back first thing Monday morning to have my Hcg levels drawn. Clyde and I decided not to tell anyone since we really weren't sure what was going to happen. By late Friday evening I began to spot more. Saturday and Sunday got even heavier. Let me tell you that it was the LONGEST weekend I have ever had. If you know me, I couldn't stay off the Internet. I think I read just about every blog and medical anything about a threatened miscarriage. On Monday I went to have my levels drawn. Of course, I wouldn't know anything until Tuesday or possibly Wednesday. By late Monday afternoon, I was having what I would classify as a normal cycle. I called the nurse Tuesday at lunch to get my results. At this point, Clyde and I were pretty sure that I was miscarrying. I was ready to accept it. The nurse calls me back and she tells me that my levels have only changed by 10. According to them, they were not classifying me as having a miscarriage because spotting is "normal". I hate that word!! She wanted me to have a followup ultrasound the next week. When those words came out of her mouth I broke down. I told her that I was not spotting anymore and felt like I really needed to be seen. As we waited in the waiting room, I have never felt so many emotions. They took me back to do an ultrasound and it confirmed that I was indeed miscarrying. When I met with the doctor, Clyde and I could have not had a better experience. He answered all of our questions and went over every detail.  I think the hardest part was calling our family to tell them. Let me tell you that Clyde was just amazing through this. He was so calm and supportive. He was hurting too but was so strong for me. I was angry, confused and hurt. I can't even remember the words he prayed that day, but I immediately felt a calmness. 

I have had several friends that have been through this and some multiple times. I just kept telling Clyde I can't imagine doing this over and over. My biggest struggle was I kept telling myself that I had no right to be angry. I mean we have 2 healthy boys. That weekend we found out several of our friends were expecting. The funny thing is it didn't affect me at all!! I could not have been more excited for them!! The words of encouragement we got from our friends and family were such a blessing. I can not THANK YOU enough for all the prayers.